God Speaks [6 days]

The past couple of weeks, I have wrestled with feeling unprepared for Kenya--no, that's an understatement. It has been whooping my butt. I have felt unprepared spiritually, practically, intellectually, emotionally, anything you can think of. But today, God reminded me of something.

I walked outside to get the mail after spending all afternoon inside trying to pack. Seeing how beautiful of a day it was outside, I decided I wanted to open the mail on the front porch. I received in the mail a booklet from Bev Brown, a kind woman who serves as a HEART Coordinator and leader. The booklet's title read: Before You Pack Your Bag PREPARE YOUR HEART. Smack! Well, if that is not convicting, I don't know what is...

You have to understand... just before this, I was on my way out the door to meet with a young woman who disciples me when I realized I had no car. (My brother took the car I normally drive back to SoCal with him.)

So... I grabbed my Bible and got to reading. As I was spending time in the Word, it hit me that God allured me there. Booklet in the mail, beautiful day, colorful outdoors, no car, not being able to contact my friend--all God. He wanted to spend time with me--just me. As I continued to read, I was literally drawn to my knees. I felt the need to physically humble myself. Maybe I should have been embarrassed that I was kneeling on my front porch, but I was too delighted in the fact that God was teaching me, Katelyn "Sinner" Winslow, through His Word.



Now, I am not trying to claim "I heard God's voice" or "God audibly said to me"...but let me share with you the peace in my heart I had today as I dived into the Word of God head-first:

"I am preparing you."

The Holy Spirit is the only one I can give credit to. And boy, is it encouraging to know that the Holy Spirit dwells in me, even after realizing the wretched sinner I am! I am forgiven.

Be encouraged. God speaks.